Josie. Just get home and go to bed. Stop torturing yourself.
Her apartment came into sight, and she sent Reagan a quick text letting her know she’d made it home. She tripped slightly, catching herself, wobbling on her heels. “Little too much to drink?” came a voice.
She let out an alarmed squeal, bringing her hand to her chest when she saw it was just the downstairs neighbor, sitting casually in the lone chair to the right of the building’s front door. “Hi,” she greeted with a tight smile as she walked gingerly up the steps. “Kinda chilly out here, isn’t it?”
“I d-don’t mind,” he stuttered, his eyes darting away quickly and then back to hers. His cheeks flushed. He wasn’t a bad-looking guy, just awkward and sort of gawky. Strange. She felt the weight of his presence, his proximity, as she pulled her key out of her small purse. Her scalp prickled, his eyes boring into her as she stood directly next to him, unlocking the door. He’s harmless, she told herself. Creepy, but harmless. The key slipped and she fumbled, the scent of him meeting her nose—something vaguely tropical, pineapple or coconut. A mixture maybe. What was it? A hair product? An odd scent for a man. Too sweet. Unpleasant.
The lock clicked open and she turned to her neighbor—what was his name? He’d told her his name and she’d forgotten—giving him a quick smile. He startled slightly at her movement, his gaze shooting to hers. She saw desire in it. Desire and a sort of . . . indecision. Like he was contemplating saying something but wasn’t sure he should. “Well, goodnight,” she said quickly, scooting in the door and closing it behind her as she jogged up the stairs, holding her breath until she made it to the top, half expecting to hear her name called from below before she could safely enter her apartment. She unlocked the door and flipped the lock, standing on the other side for a moment, catching her breath. She let out a small laugh that ended in a groan, shaking her head at herself as she pushed away from the door. “Silly,” she muttered. “Paranoid.” The awkward man was no threat. If he asked her out—and she had a sense he would sooner rather than later—she’d simply say thanks but no thanks.
Her cell phone rang, jarring her from her thoughts and she froze as she saw whose number it was. He was calling back the number that had just hung up on him. Me.
Shit, shit, shit. She suddenly felt more sober. And smarter than she’d been five minutes ago. Sucked how her good sense could seemingly fade in and out that way. She couldn’t let her voicemail answer. She jabbed at the phone, answering it but not speaking. “Hello?” came his voice. Her stomach knotted, and she clenched her eyes shut. Despite her best efforts, longing singed her nerves. There was a pause before he said, “Josie, I know it’s you.” When she still didn’t answer, he sighed. “Meet me, Josie. Or I can come there—” She disconnected the call, hurriedly dialing her voicemail and changing it to an anonymous electronic greeting. And now she’d need to change her number again. I’m such an idiot, she thought. Such a weak, pathetic idiot.
In the bathroom, she stared at her face. Alcohol and self-recrimination mixed, and for the flash of a moment she was back there, in that small dingy bathroom in the house where she’d grown up, staring at her own stricken expression in the mirror above the sink while she listened to her parents’ angry yells, the inevitable crash of something breaking, her mother’s screams, the door slamming as her father left. She closed her eyes, remembering how it’d felt. Why was she thinking of that?
Quickly, she turned on the water and scrubbed her face free of makeup, tearing off the false lashes she’d applied a few hours before, the glue leaving angry red marks on her lids.
She climbed into bed and lay staring at the ceiling for several minutes, a lump lodged in her chest, an ache inside that she had no clue how to heal. Thankfully, sleep took hold, pulling her gently under its feathery wing.
She woke with a scream lodged in her throat, someone’s hands around her neck. Panic shot through her body—hot, immediate—bringing her quickly out of the deep sleep she’d been in. She registered a man in a black ski mask on top of her, his hands around