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year.”
He looks down, and his eyes search mine. He clamps his hand over my mouth, a little over my nose, too—the way he knows I like. It’s a playful gesture, but it’s also a question. How far do you want me to go?
I don’t give any particular sign, so he rapid fires, using all the ammo he’s gleaned over the years. He whispers in my ear the things he’s come to know get me where I need to be, and for a moment, it works. That’s the thing about being married. Sex is like the neighborhood playground: you know the best areas to play.
He fists my hair and bears his weight down, pressing me firmly into the mattress so there’s no wiggle room, not for my body and not for my thoughts. It’s what I love most about Greg, how easy it is to lose myself in him.
Unfortunately, I never stay lost for long. I’m afraid that maybe I’m not built that way. My husband is happy-go-lucky most of the time. I just try to keep up. I hear a door open and shut and then footsteps. “Hey,” I whisper, writhing, trying to break free of the hand that covers my mouth. “Did you hear that?”
He didn’t hear it. He never does. “I think someone’s breaking in.”
“I set the alarm.” He says it in a way that makes it sound as though I am crazy, as though the idea is far-fetched, and he’s right. We have an alarm and a dog that would alert us, and my God. His hands and his—nothing bad can happen in a moment like this.
“Hit me,” I say, and that does it. He pulls back.
He looks at me longingly. “Are you sure?”
A flicker in my expression is all it takes before I feel the sting of his hand across my face. He strikes me once, forcing me to the present. It’s the second blow that keeps me there.
“You like it when I hurt you,” he whispers against my ear, and he isn’t wrong. There’s comfort in pain.
“Mommy?”
My eyes spring open to the sight of feet. Little feet. They come into focus as they move closer. Naomi.
“Fuck,” Greg huffs into my shoulder, language I’d normally object to in the presence of our child. But the damage is already done. My mind races forward, flinging itself into the future, before retreating into the past.
How long has she been standing there? How long since the first noise? Two minutes? Three? Did she hear the things her Daddy said? How early is too early for the talk? How much explanation is too much? This is uncharted territory, and although Greg says he’ll handle it, I can’t help but wonder if he’ll fuck it up.
But I know Greg won’t mess up, and so when he tells our daughter to go back to bed, that he’ll be there to tuck her back in, I watch him go.
He returns sooner than I thought he would, looking less weary than I’d imagined. He has a glimmer of fresh mischief in his eye. “She had a bad dream.”
“What did you tell her?”
“Nothing.”
“What do you mean, nothing?”
“Just that your back was hurting, and I was rubbing it for you.”
“What?”
“Relax,” he says, reaching for me in a way that tells me he’s hoping to pick up where we left off. “I took care of it.”
“What did she say?”
“That you should try laying on your stomach next time so I can reach it.”
“God. You’re kidding.” I swat at him, but he’s quick. “No. Seriously?”
He smiles and then buries his face in my chest. “I am serious.”
“So you didn’t talk to her?”
“No. I let her go back to sleep.”
My brow furrows, and when I say nothing more, he looks over at me. There’s a question in his eyes, one he knows I won’t answer until he tells me what I need to hear. “She’ll think it was a part of her bad dream, and we’ll let her,” he says, his hand trailing down my thigh.
With a sigh, I allow my eyes to close. “We should start saving for therapy now.”
Chapter Two
Morning is usually a mad scramble to get the girls ready and out the door. Today is sunny and particularly pleasant; I have that to be grateful for. It’s a Saturday, which helps, and so far it seems to be the kind where the stars have aligned. No one is cranky, no one lost their socks, the toast comes out just right, and the dog hasn’t puked on